'I live in a space inside my head,a cluttered space crammed with random thoughts about life, love and the struggle of being a 27yr old african woman trying to 'find' herself but losing her self in the process.I always vowed when I was growing up that I would do things differently from my mother. As the years have gone by I find myself modelling my life on the woman I thought I wasn't strong enough to become,'(If you ever have the chance to meet my mother even once, to be given the chance to be half the woman my mother is, you will know that you have been truly blessed) Finally I have had to embrace the fact, that I'm nothing but My Mother's Child....

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Oh fragile heart of mine.......

Oh fragile heart of mine
Licking its wounds defiantly within me
stubbornly refusing to move on
nor allow me to chose who i love or who i do not.
A heart that refuses to accept change.
I command yet it does not follow
I plead and yet it gives me no mercy
how can I force it to move on
to give up that which it holds dear
or love that which it does not?

This fragile heart of mine
its scars and wounds reminders of love battles fought and lost
A heart so bruised and sore
and yet it still holds on to a love thats lost
unwilling to move on
refusing to open up to possibilities
to wipe the slate clean so I can start again.

Dear fragile heart of mine
dont place me under lock and key.
Unlock your doors to possibilities
Many are knocking seeking to enter
and yet,
stubbornly you draw up your shutters
waiting for that familiar knock
which we both know will never come
If only you would learn from your mistakes
let go of the past so we can reach out,
reach out into a future full of loves' countless possibilities

This fragile heart of mine
A heart that loves hard, breaks easily but never forgets
wipe the slate clean so I can start again
I know life has knocked you down
But you must take a chance and spread your wings
If you afraid to try
let me lead and you can follow
and eventually we might learn to fly
oh fragile heart of mine.


Shubby Doo said...


Shubby Doo said...

awww...lovely poem...

you and it will learnt 2 fly again...soon

Tigeress said...

Shubby i'll allow that. lol!

Somebodies Friend said...

The heart is healing, it will allow me to spread my wings!

I promise I won't miss the next opportunity, because my heart is healing and I'm ok!

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Nefertiti said...

This is so beautifully worded- Bravo! I hope your heart listens, it usually doesn't ;-)

clnmike said...

Damn heart will never listen to what the mind tells it, only thing more disrespectful to the mind is that dang groin.

Da Hunni Toya said...

nice poem

Brothers Blog said...

great poem. Oh how fragile the heart is. We all have been at this stage before.

Miss Definitely Maybe said...

Shubby, your position should now be etched on this blogs wall of fame, 1st as usual.

wish you could lend me your wings so I can learn how to fly.

Tigeress, you are no match for Shubby lol

Somebodies friend, we all hope to heal and fly again madly deeply to a place filled with love.

Nefertiti, I hope it listens too.

Clnmike, lol my heart is much more stubborn, it refuses to listen to my groin as well.

da hunni toya, thanks its just a reflection of how im feeling.

brothers blog, true the heart is fragile but incredibly stubborn and set in its ways as well.

ShonaVixen said...

This fragile heart of mine
A heart that loves hard, breaks easily but never forgets
wipe the slate clean so I can start again......gurl u got that spot on!!!
why oh why does the heart have a mind of its own....mine's too confused @ the
as u can see m not neglecting the civil blogville duty of coming here to show me love!!! xoxo

Judy D. said...

oh dont u hate THAT... ::deep sighs::

what can u do?

NigerianDramaQueen said...

This was lovely...
You definately have a flair for poetry!
Oh these hearts of ours! If only they would listen to our brains more often!

CurvyGurl said...

Whew, I need to mail this to someone in particular. Lovin' it!

You have been tagged, my dear :) --

Anonymous said...

Beautiful and so true
The heart betrays us and does what it will.

Very well written

Anonymous said...

Awww Nice poem! Really really lovely poem. Can someone send this poem to my fragile heart.

Anonymous said...

oh boy. is this about the ex that shattered your heart?
time will heal you of him, just try to keep your steps steady and forward-going. don't turn back, dont go back to him.
if you are both to have a second chance together he will meet you in front, where you are going..

Miss Definitely Maybe said...

Sho, lol what nonsense is this I hear about you wanting to take a haitus from blogsville?
true our hearts are stubborn beyound understanding

Judy d, thing is you cant even force it into submission, thats when you end up with someone who you cant stand no matter how much you try

Nigeriandramaqueen, true our hearts have a mind of their own, but our heads are no better either, rationalising everything and everyone, looking for faults and flaws.

Curvygurl, thanks, will be over at yours to check out the 'tag'.

nyja beauty, so true, our hearts have a mind of its own.

temite, I just did.

geishasong, im glad i put up this post, if only to get to see this comment. I needed to hear that 'just try to keep your steps steady and forward-going. don't turn back, dont go back to him.
if you are both to have a second chance together he will meet you in front, where you are going'

NikkiSab said...

D heart will not lie wen our words say d opposite. D heart is a beutiful part of us.

OluwaDee said...

Unlock your doors to possibilities.

Lovely poem.

~Sirius~ said...

How did I miss this??? My stupid blog roll must be slow in updating Mcheww!


We have to fix this fragile heart of yours........Let's see, What's the worst that could happen if your heart faced it worsts fears?
Perhaps become strong and fight it's battles?
Girlfriend take the lead and it'll definitely follow....the damn heart has no choice.

Emeka Amakeze said...

You don't get drowned because you don't know how to swim but when you refuse to keep your head above the water.

Anonymous said...

...with a rising ovation Rethots stands up, doffs his hat while applauding.

"...refusing to open up to possibilities..." evnthough, many abound.

What a fate seemingly befalls this generation of ours.

flabby said...

hehe..when u learn how to do this..lemme know!!

Miss Definitely Maybe said...

Nikkisab, i guess

Oluwadee, I will as soon as i find the right key.

~Sirius~ please bring your tool box and start the work asap, coz this heart of mine needs serious work

Emeka amekaze, wise words if only my heart could read.

Rethots, am i forgiven?

Flabby, most definitely!!!!!

Bombchell said...

awww stubborn, trusting heart =) I love the "I command yet it does not follow" how true!!

InCogNaija said...


Anonymous said...

@MDM, did you sin?

Buttercup said...

Oh fragile heart of MDM, please listen to her or be ready to face the consequences! Ok, i know u've been bruised but all wounds DO heal eventually..just let urself go!

Bondgirl said...

Very positive poem babe...Have been lax in doing the blog rounds hey! But I love the poem it shows maturity and an optimism that being hurt by love sometimes is taken away

Miss Definitely Maybe said...

Bombschell, If only it would just let me lead.

IncogNaija, thanks

Bondgirl,hey its good to see you round, where you been hiding? Im trying not to lose faith in true love but I guess my heart is almost giving up

Buttercup, please tell this stubborn heart to listen, you can beat it into submision if you like, I wont even call social services lol

Rethots, lol meant the stuff about not leaving a valid email address

miz-cynic said...

like the play of words...pls take a cue from me...i left bro(a guy i blogged abt in my bro! post)....and now im considering love and all the possibilities with boo......still too ealy to count my chicks thou

miz-cynic said...

@geisha-u don kolo o....he will meet u where ur going...forward....nice one....funny but true , real and nice....i actually burst out laffing.

poeticallytinted said...

In the words of my boss of all people: "Our hearts are big enough to love more than 5people deeply. the trick is not to try getting rid of the old love completely, feel free to love again and again, the old one w3ill gradually make way for the new"

Eb the Celeb said...

leaps and bounds this really spoke to me this morning... so much going on in my head it allowed me to put some things into perspective.. thx for sharing... I can completely relate

Sikirat said...

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww this poem is dedicated to MY FINESTBOI AGBERO:)

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